Top Floor of the Fort

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

Today was very nice. Though yesterday was rather shitty today worked out beautifully. Spent most of it with my baby - shopping, etc. This evening we goofed around here. I listened to music with Eva - things are going quite well in that way. Perhaps a bit more relaxed in a good manner. Then everyone went to bed.

The house was quiet and dark and Michael and I snook a few blankets and a pillow up to the top floor of the fort.

There we laid together, in only our pants and loved each other. For the past week I have been somewhat ill. A vata disorder. But up in the moonlight with Michael I felt ok.

With love - Always

Sera Hoopes

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Melting Away

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

I had the most lovely day. I live for such times. My mother, Eva, and Quincy left around 12:00 for Seattle and Michael arrived about a half hour after. For the past several days he has been running over in the morning - it's wonderful.

And how can I describe my day without sounding - hm... I don't know. It was fucking incredible - absolutely religious.

Michael is amazing and I think perhaps I am one of the most fortunate people on this planet. Every moment I spend with him I love him more and more. He is so perceptive, so gentle and warm. He is beautiful, and so loving. I would do anything for my Michael - absolutely anything. He will always be my love.

When he smiles - I feel my insides melting away and when he kisses me... He makes me feel good and right.

Not so much "complete" for I think he has always been with me somehow. Just as though it always was and is meant to be. I don't regret a single thing. Why would I - it is good, it is right. It makes me happy, and it pleases my Michael. We are for each other. It is as it should be and I love it.

Always, Sera (16)

P.S. Michael - I love you, I love you, I love you.

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Very Package Deal

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

Hello. I am sorry that I have not written for the past 5 days. I have been somewhat preoccupied. Things are going well with Eva. We're talking more and she seems to be getting along well with Michael and I. Recently a very package deal.

It is still a bit awkward, with Michael and I disappearing into my room for long periods of time..

..but hopefully tomorrow - when Eva and my mother (who has been driving me insane! I am sure it is mutual) drive to Seattle to tour some museums and such, Michael and I can release some of our more recent frustrations (not that we didn't yesterday - that was charming in a crazy - risky sort of way).

A bit on that: My Michael is the most wonderful friend and lover one could possibly ask for. Oh god - he is incredible. He treats me so well - I can only hope to please him in return. I could devote my life to such a task. Perhaps I will - it sounds excellent to me.

Always, Sera.

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Home and They Leave

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

So very much has occurred since I last wrote here. 12 days can be a lifetime. I will begin by saying that Eugene was lovely. Michael called me on Saturday night (25th) and made me so, so happy. We spoke a few other times throughout camp. And wrote a bit. I enjoyed my time as a J.C. - good people, wonderful times.

On Saturday morning, we went to Sat. Market downtown where an incredible Bolivian band was playing. Seeing all of the people together - the smells, the colors, the life - I was so overcome with emotion that tears streamed down my cheeks. It was beautiful.

On Friday, Michael and my mother drove down to pick Simone and I up. We snook out to meet them. Waiting in darkness and then I saw them walking. I think perhaps I was glowing, and then he was in my arms. Felt so, so good. So happy. And S. returned to the dorms, my mother to the hotel. Michael and I say upon a bench that I had passed each day and held each other so tight. Love - absolute love.

After many goodbyes we left Eugene, Michael and I curled up in the backseat. It was as though I had never left - but stronger - more sure. We dropped S. off at her home and returned to my house. Beautiful flowers and Michael back in my room. Laying in my room - and talk - closer and closer with each word. And we fall asleep in each other's arms - nothing to separate each other. We awake and it is good - all is right. And Sharon comes to take us to Taste of Tacoma. Very nice time with my love. Home and they leave.

Oh my God. So true - so powerful. The fears were necessary - but not true for us. So incredible - so beautiful. Michael I love you with all of my heart and soul. We are truly one. You are both my oldest, dearest friend and someone completely new and exciting. I can share anything with you and will. Thank you my darling. Thank you for giving yourself to me. And I am yours for always. Never, ever forget that.

I love you so so much.

For always, Sera

P.S. "And there's Mickey, on the floor... and here comes Minnie. Now they are scrubbing the floor..."

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Good Orgasm Yet

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

So here's the deal. I love Michael Lloyd with all of my heart. He makes me so happy. Everything is so great. Well, Mike and I have been talking about sex for awhile now. It is something [about which] we were both comfortable and still are. But I had a talk with my mom tonight which more or less scared me to death.

Visions of pregnancy, and ordeals, and changes brought by the act have been plaguing me.

But the more I ponder it the more I believe Michael and I can overcome these difficulties. We have made it to this point and it is wonderful. I think that we will be together for a long time to come.

My mom has agreed to make an appointment for me with a nurse practioner so we can get something worked out. And I am going to do some research on this whole thing. And in the meantime Michael and I are going to be happy and great together. Michael, I love you and we'll get you a good orgasm yet.

Always, Sera

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The Wait

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

Well, we did it. We had the talk. And I am so glad- the subject had been on my mind. After talking about it, I must admit, I am much more comfortable with the idea.

I won't say that I am 100% sold on the concept. But I am getting there, where I want to be. And Michael is right beside me, holding my hand. Whenever I am ready. Perfect. It will be well worth the wait.

Sera

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My Physical Relationship

Diary | Age 16 | Tacoma

Please, if you read this, do not think that I am a silly little fool. Please know that I do tend to make more of things than there may be. But recently I have been pondering - well - Michael's (my darling love) and my physical relationship.

So far it has been wonderful. Somewhat gradual, intimate, mutual, and quite loving. Very, very cool. I am so comfortable with my Michael. But how far do I want it to go right now?

To tell you the truth I would love to have Mike be my first one. So far he has been (with all else). But somehow, inside, I know that it would be best if we waited. No, not 'til we're married - and I don't mean a week, or whatever. Just wait until we have reached that point of total comfort and trust.

I love Michael so much and want the best for both of us. Does this all sound right? How can I tell him this without sounding like a prude? I mean, I truly want it as much as he does. I can be ready, perhaps I am ready. But I want to be sure. And I want to take things slow. I want it to be perfect. It will be.

Love, Sera

P.S. Michael - you mean everything to me.

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